Life Change

The danger of being an artist is that your identity gets wrapped up with your job. When you tell people "you're a musician", then you suddenly aren't doing it anymore for a living, that creates a deep sad hole. Though the craft of playing and writing songs is still in my body, to not present myself from the stage on a regular basis will be missed. I took a job that pays and provides for my family. I did what I needed to do late in life under the gun. Things seem so different now. I can't imagine weathering this change. I'm grateful for my job, but I grieve the loss of the few times that I ever felt whole as a person, when I was performing. Lost.